I Surrender

 

I sit here writing this article with a thousand things going through my mind at once. I think about love, about money, about health, about image and I can't help but to feel so overwhelmed with this feeling of chaos. This feeling of not being able to have control, despite how nice it would feel to have it all together. I wish I could control relationships and make them go how I want. I wish I could control bills and expenses and my job so I wouldn't ever have to stress over having enough money. I wish I could make sure I was always healthy and make sure that I loved myself all the time, but I can't. I sit here writing this article with a thousand things going through my mind, knowing that you are reading this and feeling like you wrote it because you deal with this every day.

 

We have a tendency to try to seek control, thinking we have a say in how things go, but the sooner we realize we can't control anything, the better we will be. We wake up every morning, putting on our boxing gloves, ready to throw punches at what comes our way and prepare ourselves for a fight we aren't meant to fight. We sit in the passenger's seat of the car saying we trust God to know where He is going, yet we continually grab hold of the wheel and yank it our way thinking we are turning the car in the right direction, not realizing we are actually causing a collision. We sit in a boat
white-knuckling it, when we aren't even untied from the dock.



Friends, we are really silly creatures. We have the ultimate guide and protector in God, but for some strange reason, we think we teeny tiny flawed humans know better and can do better than Him. I can't tell you how many times I have worked myself up and been panic stricken for days thinking of how I was going to handle certain situations and ran the different scenarios through in my head until my brain was numb, only for God to make something happen that I never would have thought would ever happen, leaving me speechless and embarrassed for all the time I spent doubting Him. I feel like we make life like this hugely complex riddle that we wrack our brains trying to find an answer to, thinking of the most obscure answers, when the real answer is something so simple that we can't help but smack ourselves when we hear how obvious it was.

Beautiful people, there is any easy answer here to a good life. TRUST GOD! Two words?! What?! Yes, it is that simple. When we trust God, we let go of the need to have a plan. When we trust God, we give up our grip of the steering wheel, put away the gps, and realize that He knows where He is taking us and knows the best route. It feels so amazing to know that someone is planning for you and is making sure everything is in order and all you have to do is sit back, listen to what they say and let them handle things. Psalm 121:7-8 beautifully shows how God guides and protects us as it says
 "The Lord will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." The more we trust God, the more His plan for us can flourish. Every time we run from His plan, we stop ourselves from experiencing everything He has in store for us and if we run away enough, we will be so far from God that we won't know His plan at all.

 

 

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